If my life had a theme tune right now, it would be this one:
We’ve been struggling with sleep for the past three months, ever since my two year old went into a big girls bed. I’ve been told there are a number of reasons why; brain development, curiosity, new found freedom and separation anxiety. At one point my daughter was waking four or five times a night, sometimes completely inconsolable – for everyone’s sanity we had to bring her into bed with us.
Things have improved recently, but it almost feels like we take two steps forward only to take two steps back. Throw is some pregnancy insomnia and you have the perfect recipe for central sleep deprivation station.
This morning Ava woke up somewhere around 3am. After trying to re-settle her for an hour, I realised that we weren’t getting anywhere and we’ve been awake ever since.
I should be used to it really. My daughter has never been a great sleeper. We’ve gone through various stages of waking several times a night to then thanking our lucky stars when we only were only getting up two or three times.
It’s a struggle. Sleep deprivation kind of takes over your life, you start each day in an exhausted fog, only to repeat the cycle again. It’s a very boring conversation topic, so you feel bad when you bring it up with your friends. It’s also hard to relate to. It’s not the same as being tired because you had a big weekend, or a busy week at work. This is mind numbingly different.
So for now, we’ll just keep doing the best we can. And we’ll be really thankful for the nights we do manage to get some sleep and cross our fingers that we sort our sleep issues out before our new baby arrives in August.
And on the days where it’s struggle, I’ll pop on my brightest lipstick, don a big pair of sunglasses and listen to Daft Punk’s ‘Get Lucky’. It makes me laugh, because I’m definitely not up all night for good fun!
A x x x
Have you ever struggled with sleep deprivation?
Do you have any advice or tips for us to get a better nights sleep?